Wednesday, 30 July 2014

Still Waters

   Sometimes I have weeks where nothing happens and I feel calm and content. Last week was one of those weeks. No drama, no crying, no escape from life either, just living.

   It feels a little strange to just be content. I just realised that I don't often celebrate this. It's supposed to be a feeling that I want to remember and also I feel like it should be celebrated.

   All too often I feel that my life is an endurance test of feeling bad about a lot of things. Last week was really nice and relaxed. It takes strength, I have realised to accept it, and also to embrace it. This doesn't mean that stuff could happen but I want to enjoy this feeling.

   One thing that has really helped me is saying to myself when a memory comes up or something comes up for me in my head, is to say to myself, don't be mean. I have a past and a lot of things that I have done are things I don't like. Dwelling on them is mean and it's not going to make me do anything other than feel bad. It's a habit that I am trying to get past. As I said though it helps to say, don't be mean and concentrate on what I am doing or listening to. I have only recently started doing this but it has really helped me have a still waters week.

   That image just makes me happy.

   This week I am recommending a blog post, I will link to the whole thing and the specific post. It's called Yoruba Girl Dancing. I really like it. The specific post is about While You Were Sleeping. I love how she writes about it, I love that movie but her post is really great. You can find it here:

   You can find a general link here:

   It's a great blog and I really like her voice.


Friday, 25 July 2014

Bookclub! Unaccustomed Earth by Jhumpa Lahiri

   This month's book (this was supposed to be last month's book, but I needed to get my act together, sorry for the delay), is Unaccustomed Earth by Jhumpa Lahiri.

   This is a collection of short stories, some I liked more than others. I liked that they focus on different aspects of family and discontentment. My favourite of the collection was Hell-Heaven. I liked the way the stories were told. I did find a lot of it, as well as my favourite sad, but overall I liked the format and the way the stories were written.

Saturday, 19 July 2014

Things to look forward to...

   I have decided to make this post all about stuff that I am looking forward to. All the stuff that I am talking about is stuff that I am excited about, and I hope that when I get to see or read it'll still be exciting.

   So first up my romance novel addiction. I am really looking forward to the next in Erin McCarthy's series of young adult novels called Shatter, coming in early September. I have really liked all the books in the series and I am anticipating this one. Looking forward to the end of the year, Tessa Dare is coming out with a new historical, she is one of my favourite historical romance authors so I am looking forward to Say Yes to the Marquess. I am also really looking forward to the new book by Jennifer Dawson coming out in December. I read her book Take a Chance on Me in February and I really, really want to read her next one The Winner Takes All but I will have to wait for it.  

   On to some films that I am looking forward to. There are some romantic comedies and a couple of other things that I am interested in.

   The first one is something that I really want to see. It's coming out here in the UK at the of August. It's called Obvious Child, and it has the great Jenny Slate (who I really love in anything that I see or hear from her) in it as the main role. It's also got someone in it who has an abortion in it. The fact that this film even exists makes me happy and it's a comedy as well. This is something that I really, really want to see.  

   The next two I am talking about as a things that I am less overly excited about but the romantic comedy is very hard to get right and I think both of these have potential.

   The Pretty One is already out but I think the only place that I think I would be able to watch it is on ITunes. It is a odd premise of the good twin taking the place of the bad twin (who actually dies in this). It's a pretty well worn trope in romances, but I think this might be able to pull off something quite incredulous based on the chemistry between the two leads. I really like both Zoe Kazan and Jake Johnson. So I think it might charm me, but I am weary because this might completely fall apart. We will see.

   What If also stars Kazan. This I am on the same level as The Pretty One. This while thing about being in the friend zone is ridiculous. At the same time I am a huge romantic comedy fan so I think it might well win me over. Plus I actually like Daniel Radcliffe as an actor so again I am counting on the chemistry between the two leads to see if I will like it as a romantic comedy. Again they are a hard genre to pull off so it's an excitement with a caveat.      

   There is only one summer blockbuster that has me interested which is Guardians of the Galaxy. I think that this looks really good and has a lot of potential to make me remember that I like big effect films when I am in the right mood. It also has Zoe Saldana in it who I like a lot as an actor.

   So this is what I am looking forward to and I am getting excited about!

Friday, 4 July 2014

Back from Drifting

   I have gone through periods like this when I drift. I don't eat, I don't sleep well either, I just drift. It scares me now when this happens because I know myself well enough that I can get lost for weeks, the last time this happened to a serious point was 6 weeks. I haven't been like that for a long time and this is why it scares me.

   I, after two weeks got it together enough that I am now eating and sleeping. It scares me though and it's good that I am scared about it, the alternative to not caring or not noticing is worse. It's a bummer and a half not looking after yourself, and drifting though it can be pleasant it's a weird thing to go through. When I'm in it. I'm in it and I don't notice I've lost what time it is or day.

   I'm better now but I've neglected a lot including taking care of myself, and eating and sleeping is really important. I need routine I have discovered so it's taking some time to get back to it. I have idea why I chose hot air balloons but I like them, they look pretty.  

   So there are a couple of things, book club is going to be in July, Unaccustomed Earth is going to be discussed at the end of July the 25th so I can get my act together and read all of it. The Collected Works of A J Fikry by Gabrielle Zevin will be August's book and I am going to decide what the next three month's books are in the meantime. Sorry about the delay, but I am definitely going to get back to speed.

   I am also looking forward to a couple of things that are coming out in the next couple of months, romance novels, films and other stuff. I am going to do a whole post on it, but for now I am just glad that I managed to pull myself out of drifting and getting back to the real world.

   I really like covers of songs that do something different with the song which is one of the reasons I really like the cover of Dancing with Myself by Nouvelle Vague which you can find here:

   I have also gotten really obsessed by the soundtrack from the film Hanna, and this one song called Devil in the Details is something that I could listen to all day. Something about it is really hypnotic. You can find it here:

   I'm glad I'm back to writing and back to myself.